May 25, 2012
December 2011 marks for me, the end of a 14-year relationship. I thought I was handling the breakup well. And then my mother suddenly died about a month ago. It has been really tough getting out of the house since then, but I have managed to go to meetings, meet my sponsees, and call my [...]
April 15, 2012
Days Like This,,,,On The Edge Submitted by Hrmnhlpdaly on April 14th, 2012 Yep, I have days like this. Looking over that edge, its not a pretty sight, I know, Ive seen it, several times. I’ve jumped off of it also, and had to crawl back,,, over broken glass, though the filthy streets, through the swamps [...]
April 10, 2012
Honestly, of all the valuable things I learned a couple years ago when I was in rehab, the above is the most important of them all. Examining my expectations and then letting go of any that weren’t reality based was the first step in removing a lot of stress from my life. I was never [...]
March 15, 2012
Mean, hypercritical people revel in their ability to shut people down. They enjoy it. For me, these people always managed to shoot me right back into my childhood, standing there all powerless in front of my stepmother, confused and stammering because I had no idea what I’d done to have such wrath descend upon me. [...]
March 9, 2012
Detachment has been a long, on-going lesson learned in my Al-Anon recovery. My default setting is reacting to other people’s behavior in anger and being resentful for what is being done ‘to me’, when really it has nothing to do with me. My ego and self-absorbed inner victim prevented me from being able to see [...]
February 23, 2012
I am in a transformation/metamorphosis right now. I can feel it happening under the surface, but I cannot quite put my finger on it, nor can I understand it mentally. What is happening must be the work of my Higher Power, and the only explanation I have is that my discomfort spells out change on [...]
February 13, 2012
This morning, I read about priorities in Al-Anon’s Daily Reader.(Courage to Change: One Day at a Time in Al-Anon II, page 250). I needed a reading on priorities, because this weekend, I sent myself in a tail-spin after being triggered by loneliness. Of course, I wasn’t centered enough at the time to catch it before it [...]
February 11, 2012
Dear John, Wow, I never dreamed when we met a few months ago that I would be writing this letter. There is a huge void right now, which up until last night was because I am at rehab and am not supposed to have access to internet; I now know that the void is going [...]
January 8, 2012
Photo credit note: Photo by Mark Trockman © 2011 –http://trockstock.com Growing in Recovery Then & Now I had no doubt, back in the day, I knew everyfrickenthing (in Webster’s? should be), including but not limited to, I did not have a problem, I was right and everybody else was wrong, I could control my drinking, I [...]
December 31, 2011
New year. New beginnings. New chances to be me. Explore things I never thought possible. Love, life, and everything in between. I have a love story in me that has allowed me to love another. Greatest story ever told? Hell to the yes it is! Embracing myself regardless of what’s going on? Cranky? Yeah who [...]
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