Ego

Change

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“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes, the ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules and they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them.  About the only thing you can’t [...]

Who Am I

Who Am I 0

We have very little control or power over our lives, but the one thing we do have control over is our actions. If I really want to get to know myself, I need to watch myself while I am in action. What I do in each situation is a reflection of who I am. I [...]

“that” person…

“that” person… 2

Insult to injury leads to broken noses. oh wait. I’m non-violent. (damn Buddhism and damn recovery. I can’t get away with that these days.) Throw-away people. I was one of those today. You know the kind that sit in waiting rooms asking for those “hand outs.” The kind that have three children to care for [...]

Life’s Been Very Good To Me

Life’s Been Very Good To Me 7

My life in the 1970s was a time when I was prone to experiences that were reckless, self-centered, and on the edge. In the 70s Gainesville was home. Having graduated the University of Florida in 1969, and bummed around Europe for most of the next 9 months, Gainesville became home in late 1970. We owned [...]

The Value of an AA Fellowship

The Value of an AA Fellowship 1

There was a time I went through a rabid anti-AA phase – in retrospect, I see it had everything to do with my own ego and my own addiction digging in its heels and fighting for itself by using the sharp scythe of rationality. “It’s a cult! It was modeled on the Oxford Group,” I’d [...]

Faith

Faith 3

I love this poster because it sums up nicely how I’ve come to let faith operate in my life. It also reminds me to stop trying to drive everything by the demands of my ego and to live in the now. Faith is trust that things will play out as they should if only I [...]

Self-Esteem, Revisited

Self-Esteem, Revisited 77

I thought I would post a follow up to the article I wrote last week on self-esteem, because I got a couple of comments that I felt brought up some interesting points, both “pro” and “con” towards A.A.’s approach to “ego-deflation” and how it relates to self-esteem. Within the confines of human psychology, self-esteem is [...]

The Power in Powerlessness

The Power in Powerlessness 10

I wrote this last year,  and it appeared in the January issue of The Grapevine. It sums up my experience with powerlessness over alcohol, but can also apply to any element within our lives. After all– we are powerless over everything except our thoughts and reactions…right? My Story I loved the way alcohol made me [...]