my daily reflections…

i always looked fer someone or somethin to give me somethin that might cost them, but not me. i always tried to protect myself from some unperceived harm. i always took, it didnt matter what it was, someones love, forgiveness, or property, as long as i could get some kind of use out of it fer my own selfish pleasure or want. today i live by a different set of morals and values; i try to give back as much as i can. my sponsor told me, although i may not be able to give back the things i took in the past, i can always give somethin back today. my HP helps me do this even when i do not want to. He provides me the strength and courage i need to accomplish this behavior so i can live today happy, joyous, and free. i always wanted somethin fer nothin while deep in my alcoholism. my alcoholic thinkin had me believin i was owed, it didnt matter what it was as long as it was free and didnt cost me anythin. comin into recovery i learned that my thinkin was a bit askew. i learned i needed to be givin and not always receivin. my sponsor told me once, i had taken enough, and it was time fer me to start givin back. today i find givin of self has done me well. the paradox of givin rather than receivin is a behavioral practice i must believe in, as well as do, to change my thinkin. the valuable principle of givin away what i have learned, so i can keep it, is somethin i try to do daily. 1 day @ a time…