my daily reflections….

i understand today the importance of this readin, givin back. tryin unsuccessfully fer years, i lived by my own will and did what i thought was best fer me. i did anythin i could, to quiet that gnawin sensation in the pit of my belly. when i came into the program and started to live the steps in my life, i watched other people who had decided to live their life in a spiritual manner. i could see the glow from within, in them, this taught me there had to be a better way than i knew. i started doin the things they suggested, like freely sharin what i had been given, and would you believe i started to feel that glow within me. today i know it is not just a story from a book, or scene from a movie, it truly works when i decide to let it, givin it back as it was given to me. at first the idea of givin away what i had come to learn as a savin grace seemed a preposterous idea. i had NEVER given away anythin that i thought would be of use to me. as i sat around the rooms of recovery, watched, and listened to others who had been in recovery fer a while, i noticed the ones, who had what i thought i was lookin fer. they were the ones in recovery that were happy, they were always smilin, and seemed to have the world by the balls. they had what i wanted. when i asked my sponsor about them, he said they were the ones who were active in their personal program of recovery; they were the ones who were givin away what they had learned about themselves through recovery. this was a new idea to me at first, but as i have actively been in recovery fer a while now, i have experienced this gift, the gift of givin. each day is an opportunity to share this gift my HP has given me as i want to keep it as long as i can. 1 day @ a time…