The illusion of uncertainty masks the depravity of the fear I feel

locked in the void of not knowing but not wanting to stop either

Looking out at the endless rain and mucky landscape

there is always something else to ponder

aways a sense of not being there yet

And not knowing where the hell I’m supposed to be going

I have no idea what I’m doing most of the time

Or what sense I’m making to the world

Or it to me

Should be

Supposed to

rattle around my mind

irritating to the point of angry insanity

and if I just stopped for a second

to listen to myself

and disregard the nonsense

I’d be just fine


Nicola is a Health & Wellness coach with 20 years experience helping people heal and find their path. She is a qualified Reflexologist, Masseuse and Life Coach. She has created content for for 7 years. She was Editor at and has written for many recovery publications online and in print. She is also an author at The Girl God books. She has lived with type 1 diabetes for 38 years, since she was 7 years old.

1 Comment

  1. It is so true! we just have to “disregard the nonsense” – kindly, with compassion, noticing the noise and inviting it to leave. There is no THERE yet to be . We have arrived.

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