my daily reflections 07222023

givin away all the defects of character i have to God only works if i let Him keep em. i can, at times, strip them right out of His hands and take em right back. anger, ego, and pride are just a couple of the actions/defects of character i can have my way with. the thing about this amazin program of action that keeps me comin back is, when i realize these corrodin threads and feelins gettin the best of me, i can restart my day. when i recognize, and identify, my wrongs, i can ask God to take them away from me once more. though there are many aspects of my life, and certain pieces, i would like to keep, it was taught to me, in order to make recovery work best fer me, i have to be willin to give ALL of it to my HP. there wasnt much room fer discussion when i initially worked this step. i could have thought of a bazillion reasons to keep this or that, but if i did, i knew deep within, i wouldnt get this thing we do. turnin everythin over was hard, it seemed to me i would be losin things i cherished dearly. when all was said and done, and the inner struggle had been waged, i gave it all up. the willingness, i was told, was all that had to be there, but fer me to truly get it, i had to follow through and let Him have it all. i still do this simple little exercise every day, each mornin, and sometimes throughout each day. it has worked well.