my daily reflections…

in the days of doin my dirt, reckless behavior, and selfishness, i seldom reflected, if ever, on the surrender of self-will, fear, pride, resentment, egotism, and willfulness as significant flaws. through discussions with my sponsor, i recognized that these willful traits were the root causes of my erratic actions and spiritual turmoil, which consistently led to harm for both myself and others. recovery prompted me to take accountability for my thoughts and actions, which included acknowledgin what i needed to do but often resisted. i discovered that i could not effectively manage these traits without the influence of alcohol, as they were overwhelmingly strong. in the absence of alcohol, i realized i required my HPs assistance. as i began to let go of self-will, i found it increasingly easier to reject the justifications i had created and understand their detrimental impact on my life. with this clarity, makin the decision to change by surrenderin self-will became a straightforward choice. 1 day @ a time…