my daily reflections…

tradition three helps me understand the concept of equality. the significance of this notion was brought to me early in my recovery when others came to me as i walked into the rooms broken and self-defeated. they welcomed me and they didnt even know me. they said if you say you are one of us, then sit your ass down and lets talk. they didnt try to exclude me from bein one of them. it didnt matter the job i had, the social status i thought i carried, it didnt matter if i drank whiskey, beer, or wine, all that mattered to them was i honestly admitted to myself that i was an alcoholic and needed help. lookin back on that today, i dont think i had to admit anything, i think the desire to learn if i was an alcoholic or not, was enough. since then, ive learned much about myself and the willingness i must have to make this thing we do work in my life. it doesnt matter much to me today whether i am in an organized meetin or if i am with just a couple of others. we share with one another the program and get to learn how to live life with, or without, the struggles we often create ourselves, by usin the spiritual principles of recovery. with this new way of life, takin the time to continue to inventory myself, ive found i am still included and dont have to live a life of solitude or wrapped in the bitter morass of loneliness. i can share with others the things i find about myself and not be ridiculed for the way i feel about them, alls i gotta do is admit them and work toward changin em so i aint gotta feel all fucked up emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, or spiritually. often times when stuck, i get the answers i need from the friendships i have grown within this thing we do. i aint gotta stay stuck in self tryina figure shit out alone. when i live with faith i receive the confidence i need to live with obedience through a set of priorities that guide me toward inner happiness and peace of mind. i then get to experience the gratitude, humility, honesty, purity, unselfishness, and love, that others, and myself have the opportunity to live with. i aint ever gonna be perfect, i reckon that allows me to have the unique ability to be a member of the groups i choose to run with today. today i get to extend my heart in friendship, as was done toward me when i first came into the rooms, for others. 1 day @ a time...