my daily reflections…

when i was finally able to admit my alcoholism, i wasnt ever kept from any meetin i wanted to attend. i dont think i ever attended one, before this time in recovery, nor since ive been sober, where i was under the influence of any kind of mind alterin substance. this doesnt mean i didnt display any actions or say anything that would have another believin that i didnt need the help from those in the rooms. what i can remember is that i was welcomed and asked to participate if i wanted to. they didnt know me, nor i them, but that didnt make a difference. keepin these facts in mind, it is my duty to help whenever the situation presents itself. where would i be today if i had been made to feel excluded because of the clothes i was wearin, because i drank whiskey instead of gin, because i had a job or didnt, or because of the color of my skin, my gender, or social status? today, i have a pretty good idea of where i would be had i continued doin my dirt or was turned away. i want to be able to help another, i want to be able to give, not exclude or get somethin from another. i want to live a life of steady progress forward. when i focus on where i am headed in my recovery, i get to remain open to all i encounter. only in self can i be defeated. when i adopt a responsible recoverin attitude i gain the ability to care, on a spiritual level, for all in my world. when i take responsibility for my health and well-bein, i become open to the same with another. this helps me to build healthy relationships with others that are beneficial to them and myself. with a greater understandin of my own strengths and weaknesses as a person in recovery, i make myself ready for the kind of relationships i used to only dream about. i get to bring new vision, action, and grace to bear upon the dark and negative side of my natures, hopefully makin myself an attraction for another, just as was shown to me when i first came into the rooms. it is a step in the development of the kind of humility that makes it possible for me to receive Gods help, so i may help another with unconditional forgiveness, hope, and love. it is my responsibility toward recovery, & my personal recovery, to show, give, and live, empathy, compassion, and understandin, to all who enter the rooms, and those who never get to. 1 day @ a time...