my daily reflections…

when i am open-minded, i get to discover new ways to open frontiers within that break down walls creatin new boundaries for me. i get the freedom to explore areas outside or inside of me that i may have blocked in the past. in an effort to gain the humility recovery offers me, i have to let loose philosophies and morals that inhibited me, and closed doors based on the contingency of causin fear within. in the days of doin my dirt i was keen to anybody or anythin that may challenge my ego or pride. and this even drew closed the look that God could help me. i had the delusion that He had let things happen to me that hurt me, so i built walls that rejected or excluded me from tryin to use faith unless i needed a quick fox hole favor. recovery has taught me that havin a critical mind isnt a bad thing, its how i use it that has the potential to keep me from experiencin events that may help grow or teach me lessons. these experiences and lessons can keep humility and faith from openin my eyes, my mind, and heart, to growth within. humility and faith provide me the opportunity to face up to things that may be embarrassin or uncomfortable, whether they are right or wrong. it has been my experience that because i have the capability to fail, and do, i succeed because in those failins, i get to learn what works and what doesnt. from the times i fail i get to exercise humility, when i exercise humility i get the chance to apply faith. when i change my story, i get to change outcomes that happen from them. with an understandin of the impermanence of my past actions, behaviors, and thoughts, i get to vigilantly practice learnin to let go and live in the present. this gives me even more opportunity to open frontiers and stretch boundaries further developin and improvin the humility and faith i have opened up to. settin aside the selfish pride my basic human nature demands i keep, i get to expand emotional, psychological, and spiritual intelligence so i do not remain blinded from what i do not know. when i stay alive spiritually, i get to continually go to the borders of my experience and face shit that happens from a new angle with open-mindedness, humility, and faith. i then grow. 1 day @ a time...