my daily reflections…

its been my experience that as i have grown in my recovery, practicin, as best as i can, the spiritual principles contained within the program, humility has come as a biproduct of that discipline. surely bein a member in the fellowship i want to be humble and accept what my HP and the program has to offer, but when i do what is required through practicin the 12 steps, humility grows within by mere default. its like gettin from one point to another, i dont get where i need to go if i just stand still in one spot. i have to make the effort to take a step, followed by another and eventually i get to my destination. and i dont mean that humility is somethin i obtain and stop workin toward once i have acquired it, i must continue to do what is necessary to maintain it and manage it, much like my spirituality. like a doctor may practice medicine or a lawyer may practice law, i have to practice the 12 steps and their spiritual principles to continue to receive the wealth and peace of mind they bring me. i dont always do it right, or do it the way another may, the point is that i continue to try. yesterday i spent the day in grand rapids with my youngest son and his wife. they are leavin to move to fla on monday and i dont know when i will get to see them again. we had a very nice time together. as i left he told me, he, was proud of, me. i dont know what that would mean to another but i do know what it meant to me. it told me that the things ive been doin in my recovery have paid dividends that have affected others and have had a positive and effective change on me, within me. as my life unfurls before me, as it evolves, and i adapt to the changes set in front of me by practicin the virtues of recovery, i get to grow in kindness, spirituality, and humility. i get to grow trust in self by trustin others first. as the experiences ive had throughout my life have taught me much and were the best i could do at any given time, the opportunities in front of me today are different and i must be willin to mature as they unfold in front of me. i must remain vulnerable to the changes occurrin so i can grow in areas within that i need to. i must be open to insecurity and create the possibility of growin stronger from it. with acceptance, hope, trust, and faith, i get to change. i get to grow the humility i want to have, the brand of humility that comes by faithful service to my HP, others, and myself. 1 day @ a time...