my daily reflections…

when i get conflicted, which happens often, ive learned to use what recovery has offered. i aint gotta try to figure it all out by myself today, i have a trove of people to help me. all i gotta do is ask. ive been taught how to reach out to others and when i dont, it is a clear indication that i am tryin to run the show again. speakin with others, my sponsor, or trusted friends in recovery, about whats goin on within me doesnt make me a weak person as i once thought. it doesnt make me dumb, or stupid, i may be ignorant on a solution, but i am by no means a box of rocks. as a matter of fact, today i find it the most intelligent thing to do, reach out and ask for help. sharin what im goin through, whether its an amends, or struggle in any other area of my life helps me to gain the peace of mind ive sought all my life. when i dont, i block myself from my HP and the intuitive good He has to offer me. askin Him for guidance strengthens me, gives me courage, and helps me use the concepts of brotherly love, integrity, and faith. when i get the answers im seekin, it is my responsibility to move forward and commit to livin up to my end of the deal. sometimes the outcome really doesnt favor me, and i have to be ok with that. there is always a lesson in the answer if i search hard enough for it. sometimes everythin works out in my favor and peace of mind comes from it. procrastination never did anythin for me but steal away time, my most precious commodity. i could have been doin good, not just talkin bout doin good. facin life as it is, takin responsibility for those things that need to change, i get to work toward livin the change ive set out to do. in most cases i can change those things about my life that i dont like or that are hurtin me, by simply livin through the change and growin the peace of mind the promises say. it is with the practical experience of havin done the steps as best as i can, repeatedly, i get to grow my spirituality by interactin with others. even if its an amends needed done. as my recovery grows and evolves, i get to trust my HP and trusted friends in recovery more and more. under the testudinate of my HPs forgiveness, hope, and love, im willin, i have to be, for the accountable actions that help me get to keep peace of mind. 1 day @ a time...