my daily reflections…

today, havin lived several years in recovery and havin taken the time to take several personal moral inventorys on character defects and shortcomins, i have a firm belief that a return to a drink would be somethin that would cause catastrophic life change. i know i am not immune to alcohol or my alcoholism, i understand that all it will take is one self-fulfilled moment to return to a life of chaos and inner misery. when i first came into the rooms i had no defense against that first drink. surely a dependence upon self-will sustained me for a minute, but it would have never lasted. i understand this from my past and havin watched many very well-intentioned people do the same and go on to the bitter end. i had to adopt and fall into line with what others in the rooms had done themselves, find a power greater than themselves to help them overcome their alcoholism. so, with willingness and acceptance, that i could not do it alone, i eventually developed a relationship with my HP. it took some time in my early recovery, but today that relationship is strong. it is a relationship that sustains me through the evolvin life of my recovery. though it may seem a flimsy reed at times, it is as strong as i let it be. acceptance today still can be difficult for me, but it isnt like it used to be due to the relationship i have with my HP and the fellowship that surrounds me in recovery. today it is not about alcohol or drugs, its about the continued work on me that acceptance plays a role. as long as i continue to find satisfaction obeyin spiritual laws, i feel that i will continue to find happiness in doin the next right thing. with acceptance of who and what i am i am less violent, less aggressive, and less hostile than in the past. i am more liberated, respect for self is growin, and the world around me is becomin a better place to live. all i gotta do is envision a world were i continue to move toward peace of mind. with an awareness that life is difficult for everyone, today, i get to be compassionate and especially sensitive and kind. acceptance has helped to create a spiritual awakenin that i believe is one of my greatest gifts from recovery. 1 day @ a time...