my daily reflections…

as my time in recovery has passed and progressed ive come to rely upon and use my HP on a daily basis. throughout my day i lean on Him to help me with situations that i have no power over. ive found that damn near everythin i thought i had power over in the past was nothin, the only one i could ever control was myself and ive learned, that, was an unmanageable task. the personal inventory steps of 4, 5, 6, 7, and 10, helped to show me that the life i had lived prior to recovery was disastrous. i had no way of controllin shit when i couldnt even control myself. those steps, particularly 7, taught me that humility was desirable because of the marvelous thing it did to me; it created in me a capacity for the closest possible intimacy with God. i learned that humility was not so much about tryin to be good, as it was acceptin that i am imperfect. today i understand that humility is bein real. it is acceptin my humanity and bein honest in my relationships. humility is respectin the lives of others while respectin my own. humility is seekin to reveal the divinity that God has given to my life. humility is knowin that in the lives of my fellow human beins, the good and the bad are reflected in me. ive learned much about myself and with that ive accepted the spirituality of the program. the program is spiritually based, and in it i was introduced to a Higher Power. i didnt have one before, at least not one i could truly rely on, to help me feel better about myself, other than alcohol or drugs. im still learnin to turn to my HP every day for peaceful assurance that i am loved, that i am bein taken care of. in time ive grown to love myself, and i can accept me. i trust that my HP has somethin wonderful in store for me, as He shows and teaches me each moment of each day. im still experiencin great events as my life and recovery unfurl and evolve before me. it is my understandin that humility and His great omnipotence will continue to help me be joel and live with that as i continue to reap the rewards of His will. I continue to learn that sobriety without action is fantasy; i aint gotta go to creatin havoc around myself to know i am alive. 1 day @ a time...