my daily reflections…

its been great livin the promises of recovery as theyve come. there have been inner struggles, but the overall outcome of my time in recovery has been a blessin. i know i was unable to beat my alcoholism alone, i tried and failed many times. even in recovery ive tried to do shit the way i thought it should be done and it never worked out as i intended or planned. only through surrender, tolerance, humility, and acceptance have i been able to make recovery work for me. ive had to face facts as they really are, and i have to stop runnin away when shit dont go my way. i have to face reality, see myself as i really am, and situations as they really are. when i admit my faults openly and try to correct them, i get the opportunity to see and realize how my HP is workin in my life. it is somethin i have to do regularly, i cannot do it once and forget it. i have to take inventories when im startin to feel fucked up inside, its the sure indicator, and i cannot stop, i must do it every day of my life, for as long as i live. when i do this and honestly humbly seek the answers, as they come, i see how God works in my life. that last 9th step promise enables me to live with peace of mind, mindin my own business, that breeds a gentle confidence that always affords respect for others as well as self-respect. i know where the life i have today comes from. surely i play a part, but it is the guidance from the spiritual principles of recovery and my HP that deserve the credit. i need not be afraid that boredom will lead me to destructive choices. i enjoy the timelessness found in practicin the art form of recovery. im given balance and steadfast confidence that the stability and structure i live today will continue to come as i submit my will for my HPs. its been my experience that when i try to take control, ive already lost control. when i face everythin with an open mind, i get to recover, usin the answers available through recovery and my HP, even when i dont like what i find. i get to live with inner happiness because of all of the promises. 1 day @ a time...