i have yet to become the perfect person. nor do i work the steps or live the program as rightly as others may think i should. i reckon what i can say is that im not drinkin today or gettin in the middle of everyone elses shit. and its been quite some time since i have felt the urge to take a drink to overcome or solve some problem that in the past would have had me all fucked up. idk if inner peace of mind is what others find about their personal program of recovery, but i do know it is what i find when i apply what ive learned about myself with the miracle of my recovery. it is true, as ive lived the principles of recovery as best as i can, step 1s concept of honest admission that i am 100% powerless over alcohol is the only step that i can live, surrender to, and practice with absolute perfection. as i endeavor to persevere with the remainder of the 12 steps, i will admit, that i do make mistakes when i live, work, or practice them. its when i take the honest stock of what ive found after ive inventoried my mistakes do i get the opportunity to try to do better the next time. ive been granted the miracle of recovery from my HP. He has shown me through the big book and the fellowship of others how to live and practice each step. its the black part on the white pages that i get to learn from and grow toward each time i use any given concept from the 12 principles of recovery. i cant stop my humanness any more than anybody else can. my HP made me to make mistakes so i can learn from them and become better each time i do. rightly so, all i can do is strive to abide in Gods presence by seekin His guidance day by day. hell, i reckon if He would have made me perfect, i wouldnt have to be writin out these personal daily reflections, or tryin to live by spiritual principles. what i do get to do is feel every emotion He has empowered me with, divinity, love, and beauty, and it also includes sufferin. its in those times i suffer, i get to learn and grow usin prayer to release my grievances, resentments, envy, selfishness, and self-centeredness. 1 day @ a time...
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