my daily reflections…

i enjoy the fuck outta bein sober. i get to really live life today. even more so, the heightened awareness of self and the world around me, it brings. am i havin fun, fuck yeah i am! when i first came into the rooms and asked my sponsor to help me, i got to see how he lived his recovery. i didnt see him go to meetins and tell sob storys of his life. i didnt see or hear him cry from remorse or guilt in a meetin. what i seen was him walk into a meetin, get with his friends in recovery, and tell storys of his life with alcoholism today and laugh out loud over them. some of the storys, to someone outside of recovery may have sounded tragic and sad, but for him and his friends, they were storys of a life they no longer had to live and showed the glee and joy out loud of it. they were moments of triumph over their alcoholism, makin fun of themselves, with a happiness that flowed from the inside outward. mannn, did i ever have to have that. it was a true show of attraction, not promotion. when my sponsor and i were together alone, he would share with me storys of his alcoholism that were personal and explain to me how he used the principles of recovery to overcome or live through them. he taught me how to not have to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders like i had for so many years. he showed me how to live a life in recovery with joy, surrender, acceptance, tolerance, humility, integrity, and faith. he showed me how honesty, hope, courage, willingness, love, perseverance, and spirituality, had changed his life for the better. he showed me how service toward others could help me own the happiness and peace of mind from within that he, himself, had. and that even though he lived a better life today, he still had to live life with his humanness, and he was ok with that because he knew of solutions today that were far better than the solutions he had before his recovery began. this is the tell today, of how i learned to be a member of a group that wasnt a glum lot. how findin my spiritual connection to other human beins and the universe, helped my awareness of my alcoholism so i could offer such connections to others. how by merely listenin i enhance my recovery and service to others. how when i dont know whats wrong within, i can find solutions to help fix me. today i aspire to live as i was shown and taught. 1 day @ a time...