my daily reflections…

while givin the tell of my 4th step findins to my sponsor he demonstrated to me the concept of respect for others. as he sat quietly and patiently, listenin to what i had found, his poised and polite manner set an example for me to follow. when i was done we went through each one of the events i had listed and he pointed out areas where i may have been misunderstood or misused my recollection. as ive stated prior, he didnt admonish me nor try to express that i had lived a different story, he merely used what is in the book to help me see where i may have misled myself or perceived events with an eye of my will. he helped me to understand how my perception and self-will caused me to miss areas in my inventory where i should have, or could have, been more thorough. even as i thought i had been subjective enough, his objective view was extremely helpful in illuminatin how i could further better my awareness of my personal inventory. so, i went back at it and continued to write even more the things i had left out because i tried to deflect blame in ownin responsibility toward self in writin out my inventory. he reminded me that this wasnt a mere attempt at just tryin to get through it, it was an attempt to stop the chaos i had always created and learn how to use what i had found to better myself for the rest of my life. he reminded me to keep a grateful heart for this opportunity, that many, dont get to live this gift, or remain sober afterward. i had to choose the right. i had to use Gods blessin and direction in all my efforts for the good of self and the good of others. it was my responsibility to be critical of me, relievin those i felt had wronged me and offerin them the benefit of the doubt and respect they deserved, somethin i had never truly done. i had to try to learn and live with the problem of knowin i had done wrong, still affected by them, and use what the program had taught me in the prior steps. today my spiritual program demands that i expose my prejudice for the hate it is, try to pass on the joy that comes from love, acceptance, and freedom. i get to be grateful for the intuition and quick tongue of my fellow members as they can help me get honest. i get to remain thankful today for my sponsors poise, my trusted friends in recoverys honesty toward me, and the growth ive acquired from this thing we do. today i get to know. 1 day @ a time...