my daily reflections…

throughout my recovery ive gotten to see how givin of self is a practice that those who have long-term, quality, recovery, constantly do. ive also witnessed those that dont. my sponsor was an excellent example of givin without strings. he offered his recovery to me when he could and was willin to go beyond if needed. he taught me how balance could help me as i struggled to obtain it. he showed me how his life had gotten better as he told me his story and experience. and he did this like it was a matter of life or death for him. im not tryin to say my sponsor would have laid down his life for me, but what he did was show me and explain to me that for him to remain in recovery he had to do the sometimes uncomfortable. and as ive lived my recovery ive watched others do the same for their own recovery. they make recovery a priority in their lives through success and failure, given when they can, and sometimes, when they cant. ive witnessed others give of their greatest strengths in direct contrast to their greatest weaknesses. ive also witnessed others live through their greatest weaknesses in order to reap the rewards of their greatest strengths. with so many examples, ive been given an opportunity to use what ive learned about myself, what ive seen others who have integrity do, sometimes the most difficult tasks, in an order to keep what they have. it seems to me, if i want what they have, i should parrot what they do. there is an alternative, and for me, i know what that option is; i dont want to live that option ever again. to keep set upon a rock, i must continue to rely on God to guide my comins and goins. and if that means sharin my e.s.h. or simply listenin so i may learn, im doin it. today i can laugh at myself. i do not take myself too seriously. i am continuin to grow. the struggles ive lived have made me as strong as i am today. as forgiveness, hope, and love continues to enter my life through my heart, not my head, recovery continues to enhance everythin as i give without strings. 1 day @ a time...