my daily reflections…

i never imagined that one of the greatest achievements of my life would be peace of mind. its been my experience that when i live life, i need God. these were the new attitudes that finally brought me an inner strength and peace that could not be deeply shaken by the shortcomins of others or by any calamity of my makin or anothers. when i really depend upon my HP, i cant continue to try to play God to those around me nor can i feel the urge to wholly rely on self or another for protection and care. i know today that i no longer have to proceed on my own. ive learned that its safer, more sensible, and surer to move forward with my friends in recovery who are goin in the same direction as i am when i cant seem to find my HP. i aint gotta feel shame at usin help, since we all help each other in this thing we do. when i have a sincere willingness to give and give back the strength i have received for myself i get to show another that it is not a sign of weakness to ask for help, that we can share in the camaraderie of the fellowship because it is what makes recovery work for each of us. its like my HP and the fellowship i surround myself with is a vaccine for The CoViD 19s. my HP, the fellowship, and this thing we do gives me and others the strength we need so we can remain happy, joyous, and free. i thank my HP each day for the tools of recovery. that 5th step tell and the studyin i did afterward helped me to be able to turn what had kept me down for so long into an attitude of openness and wonder. shit i had never seen before became crystal clear. i didnt have to feel trapped from the religion of my youth, i learned to surrender to my humanness and accept it for its imperfect charm. i wasted years tryin to be somebody i wasnt, with rigidity, judgment, and arrogance. today i aint gotta or gonna hide. i can be happy, joyous, and free. i can live the freedom of a spiritual reality, livin and learnin from its experience and awareness. 1 day @ a time...