my daily reflections…

in Dr. Bobs Nightmare, on pg. 181, in the 2nd to last paragraph, in its 1st sentence, Dr. Bob writes, “if you think you...have any other form of intellectual pride which keeps you from accepting what is in this book...”, reminds me that i need to remain willin to remain open-minded throughout my recovery. just because i may have become familiar with the spiritual principles recovery teaches, doesnt mean that i can stop doin what has kept me sober. Dr. Bob completes the sentence and continues with, “... i feel sorry for you. if you still think you are strong enough to beat the game...” which allows me to understand that i alone cannot do this thing we do alone. i need the help of my HP and others in the rooms to make my momentary, and daily, life livable. ive learned through the process of the 12 spiritual principles that once is not enough. just because i may have knowledge or think i know, doesnt mean that i can stop doin what works allowin myself to let go and let joel. i must keep a conscious contact with my HP, because just as my recovery grows and evolves, so does my alcoholism in its dormancy. i have been shown an answer that will work if i go about it with ½ the zeal ive been in the habit of showin when i was gettin another drink. i must continue to let my HP show me how to live through life with trust and faith in Him. i must give this thing away if i want to keep it. its not just knowin, but doin. surely my HP allows me the room to live my humanness, succeedin or failin, but its my surrender to Him in those moments which provide me with peace of mind. i must live alongside Him in every moment of my day practicin willingness and open-mindedness. ive experienced in my recovery when i seek Gods companionship and unconditional forgiveness & love, before i need it, much of my personal difficulties never arise. it is a practice in open-mindedness which allows me freedom. today i have an understandin, with my HP, the answers to my problems are spiritual. with Him i know that ive the personal power, in cooperation with God, to change my life. serenity isnt freedom from the storm; it is peace within the storm. 1 day @ a time...