my daily reflections…

i had faith before i came into the rooms and started practicin the 12 spiritual principles of recovery. it was just misplaced in self and other material items. never was there a thought of havin faith in God unless i was in some kinda trouble and needed a santa god to rescue me. yeah mannn, then i was all about havin faith in God. recovery taught me how honest faith in God could help me get over my alcoholism if i was to use what it taught me to have a psychic change. this transformational change could secure me an opportunity to get past my physical cravin for alcohol if i turned over my obsessive thought processes as they pertained to alcohol. i had to practice, over time, a way of life uncommon to me. that entire abstinence from alcohol was possible, but it would NEVER happen by continuin to practice my own self-will. i learned that i could not think my way into not takin the next drink. it had to come from a Power greater than self. it would take a spiritual solution to solve my personal spiritual malady. this understandin started with step 2 & 3. first there was the hope that others gave me as i listened to their stories. as i threw out bits of faith and watched for their return, they came. those little seeds of faith began to grow and i began to feel within that transformational, or psychic change within. i wish i could say i had a spiritual experience as bill dub did, but thats not my story. the spiritual experience that helped me move forward with my recovery was most def one of the educational variety. as time lingered forward, i began to use the faith i was growin within, to receive recoverys blessins i couldve NEVER manufactured myself. as i do the next right thing, live the next moment as best as i can, the seeds of faith others instilled in me in my early days of recovery have continued to blossom. as i try to be in the stream of eternal life, i promote and sustain a perseverance that helps me remain cleansed and healed by the Eternal Spirit. today, i will give myself the privilege of being a learner. ive learned relationships are built with communication; so, i pray for an even stronger faith. 1 day @ a time...