my daily reflections…

its what my sponsor taught me, its what good healthy conference with my sponsor or other trusted friends in recovery gives me, a balance, sane, opportunity to repair the damage i caused while out doin my dirt. i dont go out all halfcocked and make stupid mistakes based on my own egotistical intuition when makin an amends or a big decision. when i approached this phase of my emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual development, i still needed the suggestion and guidance of my sponsor. even as i had grown and matured, his careful sense of timin, courage, and prudence, was somethin i needed to try to learn and parrot. they were the qualities i needed, which i hadnt honed, when i moved forward in my journey and took step 9. my sponsor was honest with me. if he hadnt had experience with a specific amends i needed to make, he guided me toward someone who did. see, he taught me that though many of the experiences he and i may have experienced may not be the same. its why he encouraged me to build relationships with others in the recoverin community so i could go to them when i was strugglin with somethin he may not have ever experienced. what integrity he had, such humble guidance. they were qualities of character his sponsor, his recovery, passed onto him, which he passed onto me. i cant tell ya today that every amends i made went smoothly and i didnt have to do things i didnt want to do, but i can tell ya’ll, with what i learned about myself through inventory, a willingness to grow integrity usin faith and humility, i did what i had to do so i could live today with freedom, happiness, joy, peace of mind, body, and soul. i learned how to bring peace where there is discord; bring conciliation where there is conflict. life gives challenges; challenges often bring strength; and strength will enable me to survive. from that early experience i am willin to face my challenges so that tomorrow i can live with peace and serenity. with my HP, and recoverys available answer, im able to be strong enough to do what i need to do right now. 1 day @ a time...