my daily reflections…

i couldve never imagined before my recovery the life i would live today in recovery. i always thought life would be borin and lived like the stuffy old folks i had seen throughout my life. i didnt know i would enjoy life sober like i know today. the truth of the matter is, today i have friends i can truly count on. not that i didnt have friends i could truly count on before my recovery began, because i did. i just chose not to associate with them, or they didnt want anythin to do with my loser ass, because i could no longer manipulate them like i may had been able to before they cut me off. today the people in my life are there because they want to be. see, i no longer do shit to people like i did before my recovery began. and if i start showin my ass, they call me out on it. due to recovery ive learned how to treat people with respect and integrity. i know how to let them live with their dignity. the people i have in my life today are mostly those in recovery. they are who i choose to associate with. with them i get to live my life in a fellowship of people who seek the same solutions as i. ive also been able to repair the damage i may have caused while out doin my dirt, strengthenin my circle of friends. i get to live a new life today because of the fellowship of recovery. somethin i could never have done before. my imaginations have been fired. from this, i get to enlighten others. life seems to mean somethin more than ever before. if ya wouldve told me in my early days of recovery the most satisfactory days of my life lay ahead, i woulda laughed at ya. im here to tell ya right here and now, ive gotten to live some downright satisfactory days since my recovery has begun. today no longer do the drops of loneliness flow through the whiskey glass, today the sands of life drip through the hourglass and i get to count em as they fall. what a blessin it is to have a fellowship around me that understands my alcoholism. 1 day @ a time...