my daily reflections…

by the time i had quit drinkin i had tried everythin i knew to control it. i knew that i was hit, i didnt know what else to do. there came a time that if i wanted to live life free of drinkin & druggin that i had to change, but i didnt know how to. i had a choice to make; i had to be shown by my sponsor and the fellowship of AA how to get in touch with my HP. i fell prey to this mornins daily reflections exact question; i no longer had a choice, i had lost all control in any decision i could try to make, and i couldnt tell anyone why i had, because i did not know. my alcoholism certainly was one of the 1st choices i had to try to make a decision over, its subtle slow grip of progression, foolin me at every turn, i learned, had won each time. i had to make uncommon choices in my early recovery to even survive. when i came into this thing we do i learned that my will power was truly nonexistent. when fer years i thought i had everythin under control, i really never did. i was tired, done, wore out, ready to just surrender to its grip. today i have a choice in the way my life goes. as funny as it may sound, surrender to my HP and His will for me was a part of gainin my life back. i cant say i wont ever lose or drink again, but i can say that if i continue to use the principles i have learned, i have a better chance of surrender, so i may maintain healthy choices. 1 day @ a time…