my daily reflections…

i remember realizin that i didnt drink like other people could. that i always drank more, that i always drank later, that i always drank longer. i thought it was cool, til the really bad stuff started happenin. losin jobs, not payin bills, losin my family, and finally losin everythin and anyone i had ever loved or cherished in life. this is when i had to concede to my innermost self that i was an alcoholic. i am grateful this obsession has been lifted from me to some degree. the most important of all the steps, it is the one that i MUST do correctly! if i dont i will fail at the process of the rest of the steps. it really wasnt too hard to see in the end what i had become, i know today that with my HPs help i can conquer this malady and live happy, joyous, and free. it is good for me to know and understand that i aint gotta be perfect in life. back in the day i always fooled myself by always tryin to be somethin i was not. recovery has taught me that i can be just who i am. today i can surrender to things that are beyond my control, like alcohol. this puts me in a better place to understand that i am powerless over my alcoholism. usin the spiritual principles of the fellowship i can accept every day for bein everyday life, it gives me room for growth with my HP. it allows me the privilege of makin a mistake and learnin from it so i can move forward. 1 day @ a time…