my daily reflections…

when i was early in recovery all i wanted to do was shut the door on my past because i felt so much regret for the things i had done. it was a tough thing fer me to do, learn to forgive and love myself fer the things i had done to the ones i loved the most. i carried such a huge resentment against myself. from this thing we do i learned that if i was able to let my HP in and take it all away from me that in time i would be able to face those things and no longer regret nor wish to shut the door on my past. today i can still get a sick feelin in the pit of my belly when i think of all the damage i had done to others. when i ask my HP to take it from me He does, that twisted knot in the pit of my belly turns into the big warm fuzzy. forgiveness, hope, and love, flood my senses and i can walk forward with faith feelin secure that those deepest darkest days of my past are today, my most cherished asset. 1 day @ a time…