my daily reflections…

this was the case for me; i needed to lose everything i thought i ever cared about includin almost losin me before actually concedin within that i was an alcoholic. i had been introduced to this program of action, before actually committin to it, a few times. at those times when i was introduced, i didnt see the need for me to be involved in the program because i simply was not like those i had seen or heard of. others may have seen and thought different of me, but i didnt. since comin into this thing we do i can look back upon my drinkin and know with certainty that i was in need of intervention long before ever hittin my bottom. i have heard others say that they have tried usin the steps & principles while continuin to drink like i did and have had little success in capturin the fellowships freedoms. today i am grateful for this thing we do. i am grateful for my bottom. admittin that i had come to the end of my wits so far as my alcoholism was concerned wasnt really that hard in the end, i had lost everythin i had ever worked hard to get and was tormented by selfish desires. all achievements were for not. i did not know at the time that this admission would open doors for me, doors that needed to be opened from within me. movin forward with my program of recovery started with a simple spiritual principle, honesty; to be able to move forward with my recovery meant that i would have to do things that i had fought hard not to do. tryin not to face me was a fear i had nurtured for a very long time. hittin my bottom gave me the opportunity to finally look within and fix me. it is somethin i still must do today, look within. from those early lessons i have grown emotionally, psychologically, behaviorally, & spiritually. 1 day @ a time…