my daily reflections…

honesty is the principle of step 1. as i progressed through the principles of recovery, i learned, others were not to blame for my misfortune. though some of it may not have totally been my entire fault, others were not to blame. my reaction to misfortune was mine, no one elses. when i was finally able to understand this honestly and accept blame for a majority of things in my life that happened to me, i was able to progress. i had always blamed others for the unfortunate life situations i was faced with. it didnt matter what it was, if it was bad and happenin to me, it was someone elses fault. i could never see my part in any misfortune. after a while, when others couldnt be blamed any longer, i began the unhealthy measure of systematically blamin myself for everythin. that was when my drinkin really took off. the self-loathin and disappointment led me straight into the bitter morass of self-pity and loneliness. after comin into this thing we do, and as my head began to clear, i could start openly seein my part in almost everythin that had happened to me. i found out that i didnt have to use alcohol to chase those feelins of uselessness, self-pity, remorse, and guilt away. i found i could use the principles of this thing we do to let loose all of those perfectly human emotions; recovery showed me, then taught me, healthy ways of managin em. though they were hard to work through, the spiritual principles helped to guide me to a healthy state of emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual well bein; i had found freedom from self-blame, remorse, shame, and guilt. freedom from guilt taught me to become responsible for the actions which led me to the place i was. 1 day @ a time…