my daily reflections…

i can remember thinkin i was all that. i can still go to thinkin that way when i take charge of my life. on the inside, im a scared lil boy fearin everythin, i would do anythin to NOT let that show. i am grateful today that my relationship with God has turned me into a humble soul that can show signs of weakness. i would have never thought that by givin any kind of surrender that i would have been rescued. there is the paradox of this thing we do that says, by surrenderin, we win. i could have never of come up with such a novel idea on my own. my own narcissism, egocentric, omnipotent self would NEVER think of such a simple solution to turn from my alcoholic thinkin or action. as the readin suggests, i had to master my own destiny by preservin my thoughtless inner, so-called, integrity. when i was finally able to lay those thoughts and beliefs to rest, then, and only then, was i to know a true happy, joyous, and free life. today i have lived and experienced the simple action of bein rescued by surrenderin. it is a feelin hard to put into words, i am thankful and grateful i have experienced such jubilation. 1 day @ a time…