my daily reflections…

i cant tell you i gained a sense of humility the 1st day i started livin this 12-step program. i cant tell you that i have the amount of humility one may think i should have after bein here 18yrs. i can tell you that it has grown since day 1 with help from my HP. i try to live it and practice it every day to the best of my ability so it may grow in my life. today i am ok bein me, and im not as skeerd as i once was, sharin with another what it was like, what happened, and what it is like today. it took time in recovery to be able fer me to start to love myself. i battled guilt, shame, and remorse fer the things i had done in the past and couldnt seem to be able to forgive myself or love myself. i still need to apply and practice each of the beginnin spiritual principles in my life daily. those beginnin foundational blocks of honesty, hope, faith, courage, integrity, and willingness, provide me a solid ground of humility to stand upon so i may live forward into my life. when i try to keep little trinkets of past harms or dirty deeds to mull over, and over, i block the flow of good comin in and cannot produce a flow of good outward. becomin humble by usin the spiritual principles in my life i am able to forgive myself and love myself. integrity has taught me humility so i may understand it is ok to be me. 1 day @ a time…