my daily reflections…

when i opened up and truly looked inside, i did not like what i saw. it was old, musty, and dark; unhealthy emotions and characters i had always thought were gonna keep me safe had failed me miserably. when i came into this thing we do i was promised i could release all that harmful stuff and start anew, but what i saw were things that gave me great fear. i needed to try to look at these perceived fears, honesty, hope, courage, forgiveness, and love, with a healthy conscience. i needed and wanted change. i had to see these identified, dark things, which caused me so much pain, and learn how to effectively manage them. with this new intelligence, brought through by clarity of mind, i was able to pick those old affections apart and put new sentiments in. surrender, acceptance, integrity, willingness, humility, self-forgiveness, and healthy self-love are what i replaced those horrifyin feelins with. today i get to live a differin set of values and morals within, which i can only attribute to God and i am thankful. though i may still seem to want more of whatever it is i believe is a good thing; if one is good then ya just know, two has to be better. i lived under those rules fer an awfully long time. i went far beyond willfully demandin i get more satisfaction, or pleasure, than was possible, or due me. this thing we do has taught me how to keep a healthy balance in my life today. i do not fear healthy emotions, ive learned how to process them so i may live with them in my life. though i may not do it right all the time, i still see progress each day i practice this thing we dos spiritual principles. keepin my life simple and doin what is right in front of me each day gives me the desired result of long-term hope. 1 day @ a time…