my daily reflections…

when i try to make things bigger than they are, guess what happens, they become way bigger than they are. it is important fer me to remember to stay right sized in ALL of my activities throughout each day. it tends to keep things easy to manage fer me so that i dont get stressed, agitated, frustrated, or worried. these are all emotions which can lead me to unhealthy, worse behaviors. my HP is there to help and guide me when i am able to give Him the baggage that is too much fer me. self-searchin is somethin that didnt stop once i did my initial tour of duty with the 12 steps. it is somethin i have had to continue with since the day i started this new way of life. old habits and behaviors have a way of creepin back up within me. it says in the big book that fear is an evil and corrodin thread; the fabric of my existence was shot through with it. i know other character defects and shortcommins are still alive within me, just as my alcoholism is. however, this mornins readin gives me hope, it says, self-searchin is the means by which we bring new vision, action, and grace to bear upon the dark and negative side of my natures. so, my goal of humility doesnt end once i get it after the 1st time. fer me self-searchin is somethin i must continue to do, i must use what i have learned through experience to enhance any humility i have daily; remainin willin to continually open up myself fer positive change from within. 1 day @ a time…