when i came into the rooms i knew alcohol had whooped my ass. i had lost everythin i had ever loved and worked for. and yet, deep within, i had this lurkin notion that i didnt know if this thing we do would work for me. to say i was scared would be a total...
its been proven to me that when i step back, stop pushin my shit, relax and take it easy, my day goes much better. when i am open minded, i get the opportunity to learn, whether its from my own mistakes, or anothers. i dont think i ever experienced either in their true definition before...
even as my will gets in my way, even after startin each day with spiritual readins, prayer, and meditation before i even leave my home and move out into the world, i can still get wrapped up in self and live out my will usin it as a battle ax against others w/out even realizin...
just like anythin else that has been good for me, my recovery has taken time. i didnt have today what i had the first day i walked into the rooms to start this journey. and i dont think if i stopped doin what it takes to keep it that i could keep it. my sponsor...
I am constantly amazed by how much is possible when I simply try to listen to those who demonstrate, consistently over time, that they are sincere (or, in the weakest mental interpretation possible, trying to be) in an endeavor that I myself consider to be of primary importance: sobriety. Sitting in these meetings on this...
there was a time in my life, and even into my early recovery, when i would blame others for the shit that happened to me. i couldnt see past me doin anythin wrong. i could pick the fault out in others and totally disregard my own. if bad shit happened to me, i always had...
for me, to assist the program of recovery i use to beat down my alcoholism, i must do things that i probably wouldnt have done before my recovery began. this mornins daily reflection sure nuff speaks of things i probably would never have done. if worrin and obsessin over what happened throughout my day was...
selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear are forms of character defects and shortcomins that are engrained deep within me. i practiced each to their fullest potential for years, honin them as skills to use against others to get what i wanted while out doin my dirt. though i have a very good relationship with my HP...
perseverance is a spiritual principle i have to practice. procrastination or laziness cannot stand up to perseverance. in exercisin the perseverance of each of the programs 12 steps it is to my best interest to use what i have learned about myself through personal inventory and the feedback from my sponsor after the tell of...
my daily reflections… i am blessed with the ability to enjoy the freedoms recovery has taught me are mine to own. the freedom to be myself has given me the self-confidence i need to be able to say and do what i want, when i want, as long as i am not knowingly hurtin somebody...