while out doin my dirt, if i could relieve myself of any responsibility for the way i felt within, i was game for it. blamin everybody and everything for the shit that happened to me, i later found out i always played the biggest part in, always took away the responsibility i had in all...
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My whole life, when they called me lazy I felt I was trying so very hard — Now they tell me I work so hard And I feel lazy and unworthy of praise — My life is filled with such joy and connection But my inner life is filled with such loneliness and angst —...
when i came into the rooms, i needed to build the positive character assets i had and start deflatin the negative ones. for so long i had lived under my own direction, that the character i did have was rotten and failin. i dont want to convey that everything i ever did was wrong, or...
i remember the 1st personal inventory i did. it wasnt as detailed as ones i had done later in my recovery, but it did touch on the issues that were plaguin me at the time. it was quite an eye openin experience for me. i didnt know that the solutions to the problems that seemed...
when i was finally able to admit my alcoholism, i wasnt ever kept from any meetin i wanted to attend. i dont think i ever attended one, before this time in recovery, nor since ive been sober, where i was under the influence of any kind of mind alterin substance. this doesnt mean i didnt...
today i am ok with bein me. i am aware of who i am and can rest in peace with this knowledge. this doesnt mean i dont try to strive to be better because, i do. im human and want nice things, but i also understand that material wealth isnt what my focus needs to...
in followin the concept of tradition 3 i get the opportunity to get out of self and be someone more than i ever was while out doin my dirt. early in my recovery, as my sponsor was explainin to me the idea of service, he emphasized my willingness to give of self, due to my...
tradition three helps me understand the concept of equality. the significance of this notion was brought to me early in my recovery when others came to me as i walked into the rooms broken and self-defeated. they welcomed me and they didnt even know me. they said if you say you are one of us,...
im so down with how this mornins readin talks of how the freedoms i have gained through recovery allows love to grow. i feel like if others didnt share their freedoms or love with me when i came into the rooms i wouldnt have stayed long, no matter how desperate i may have felt in...
i believe today, after my time in recovery, havin seen and lived the results of it, that faith is the bridge between God and i. it is with Him that i get to live and experience the freedoms that life provides. within those freedoms are lessons i get to experience. i aint gonna try to...