When I came around AA for the last or near last time years ago like 1981ish? I had no 12 Steps. Actually there were no Big Book 12 Step meetings according to AA's New York office. I know this to be factual. When Big Book 12 Step (BBS) formed the first meeting, we had difficulty...
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as my sponsor pointed out areas in my inventory where selfishness had driven the decisions i had made, i couldnt help but feel the weight of the emotional pain of self-deprecation i had always used, drop down on me. the self-imposed weapon i had used all my life to give reason to shut out the...
When it came to finding a new way to live, it was really hard for me to figure out the first three steps. There was this whole, 'God' thing to consider. When I was new to recovery, I didn't trust anyone. I doubted myself to stay clean. I had a lot of self doubt and...
resentment took me to places within i never meant to live. i served self, not the HP i serve today. i thought that material wellbein would provide me with the happiness i thought my life was posed to be. and it did at first, but that happiness from the outside, i found out, didnt last....
Page 15 Allowing ourselves to be happy can be a surprisingly long process. It always continues in one way or another. Some of us fear contentment because it might lead to complacency. Others of us fear that if we are ever content, there will be nothing left to try for. Learning what truly makes us...
Page 14 Caring for our spiritual condition is like cleaning the house. If we want to benefit the work must be ongoing. The better we do at keeping up with the daily routines, the less painful the big cleaning is when it comes, and the less often we have to undertake a major overhaul. We...
when i came into the rooms, i was tired mannn. if there was anybody that could totally whoop my ass, it was me. id rather have 5 big time wrestlers drag my ass into the squared circle and come off the top rope, than have to continue to live in the place i was before...
I am still amazed with 10 plus years in, that practicing daily maintenance of my program. Can & will give me balance, faith in my higher power, courage to apply the spiritual principals I have learned so far. When I don't a challenging pops up I am lost deep in my Dis Ease… Going deeper...
as fearful as tellin my sponsor all my dirt may have seemed at the time, the threat of goin back out there to do it, loomed even greater. and still there was this idea within that if this thing we do didnt work as i heard it would in the rooms, the shit storm i...
when livin with the ghosts of my past, the resentments i had formed, eventually became too much for me to handle alone, alcohol was there for me. and it worked, even better than i had expected it to. so much so, that i began usin it more and more as my life moved forward. it...