when i came into recovery i didnt know if it would work for me or not. i didnt know if it would help me stop drinkin. i didnt know that if i put half of what i put into drinkin i would get the results i received. full of anger, hate, self-loathin, and unforgiveness, i...
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i have learned through recovery that it is ok to be me. durin my youth i had been made fun of by the people who meant the most to me and that is where the fear of thinkin and actin like the person i was made to be began. when i was introduced to alcohol,...
who doesnt want more of a perceived good thing? while i was out doin my dirt i would have never thought that alcohol was the catalyst for my actions. lookin back today i can see how easy it was to blame alcohol for all the shit that happened, but today, i gotta be honest. surely...
Something I learned in the rooms is that if my day isn't going great, if I'm struggling and if my attitude is toxic then at any moment I can choose to start my day over… And start anew… I am not defined by the emotional state that I wake up in… Or the mindset that...
today i am fortunate enough to have had the obsession i once had with alcohol removed. it doesnt mean that i still dont think about it, because i do, i just dont think about it like i did before my recovery began or in my early recovery. i reckon i have found the strength needed...
fear touches every aspect of my life, and one where it hits heavy is when i feel like i havent the necessary cash reserve/inflow to live comfortably. im not talkin bout havin the nicest car or house in town, im talkin bout the basic shit, a place to live, a way to get around, pay...
People. I can't drink em. I can't get drunk on a bottle of ex-wife or fatherless children left in my wake. No matter how many times there's hope? Another chance? Then they fade smaller and smaller to black. No, it's the alcohol that gets me drunk. Seems so obvious now but man it took a...
i will never forget my sponsor goin over “love and tolerance” with me. what a lesson it was for me in learnin how to shut my mouth. we were comin home from a meetin and i was bitchin about how i never wanted to drink again and the anger i had for alcohol and those...
Why We Stay What is it that keeps us in NA after the initial desperation eases? Of course, there's desire to help the newcomer; our Twelfth Step reminds us that this must always come first. But many of us, at some point in our recovery, have felt that perhaps that was all that was left...
throughout my recovery ive used prayer as an avenue of communication with my HP so that i could build a relationship with Him. i have used prayer to ask my HP what, when, or how, my next steps should be. ive used prayer as a way to get the things that i have no answer...