ive defined my self-will as my spiritual malady for a very long time in recovery. it is what kept me blocked for years before my recovery began and what can still keep me from receivin the will of my HP. surely, i may hear His intuitive voice today, but when i am self-seekin and my...
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with the hope that step 2 provides, i get to make the venture into the faith step 3 cultivates. i had heard others say how they had surrendered their will over to their HP when i first came into the rooms. watchin their footsteps after hearin their stories i began to have hope that i...
i didnt know what to expect out of this program when i first came in. i knew i was beat down and needed to find somethin to help me stop all the chaos and destruction i caused. i could feel it all within and i couldnt stop the anger and self-loathin i had toward myself...
My Master I have a master of an evil kind He totally controls my body, soul, and mind At first he was fun and cool But soon I became his fool, A victim without a chance He took my life in just a glance Hes so sneaky and full of deceit I wonder why we...
Strange how I somehow thought although the 12 Step program specifically said it should continue for my lifetime? It seemed to mean your lifetime. I with my long term sobriety had arrived, settled into my official parking space at the Thursday night Men's meeting with stepsherpa placard etched in a stone curb. To look back...
tradition 2 reminds me to live with a simplicity in my life. this concept helps me to break the compulsion i have toward unhealthy and negative expectation and control. it helps me to remember that i am not the center of the universe. when i gain this concept in its full gravity i get to...
when i turn my personal problems and my life over to the hands of God, i get to be open-minded to the concepts within the program of recovery that help me grow. it is an exercise in trust that allows the freedom to live my life and enjoy it. the 12 traditions explain to me...
i cannot say enough how blessed i am to have been able to suffer as i did in the last days of doin my dirt. as much as i didnt like it then, or even my early recovery, i understand today the self-induced pain i suffered from was necessary. and please, notice how i worded...
its so easy for me to beat myself up over the mistakes i have made in the past and the ones i make today. guilt is toxic man. relivin the same mistakes over and over again is self-torture to me. why bully myself by constantly criticizin and blamin myself for mistakes ive made or may...
ive learned through recovery that thankfulness is an emotion and gratefulness is an action. for me to be able to practice my program of recovery i have to keep with a level of humility that allows me to let go of self. for me to entertain or remain full of conceit is an avenue toward...