i can remember bitchin to my sponsor one time early in recovery about how i was pissed at someone and givin him the list of justifications fer the anger. i was brimmin over with selfishness, resentment, and fear. he turned to me and simply said, “we have ceased fightin anythin or anyone, love and tolerance...

learnin how to pray and meditate took me a lil time. as with much of my early recovery i had to throw out lil bits and watch fer results. it did not suit me to hear others tell me it worked, nor did it suit me when others said, just have faith. but as i...

freedom! somethin i always thought i had before my recovery began, and to a certain respect i thought i did. i reckon i can say that coz through personal inventory i learned how my priorities and goals were different than the ones i reshaped or changed in my recovery. as unhealthy as those priorities and...

recovery has taught me many lessons. some have been very bitter and hard to swallow, others have been very pleasant to live with. each have given me tools with which to grow behaviorally, emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. it has been my experience when i practice gratitude on a daily basis, im able to live through...

my sponsor asked me when i first came into the rooms this last time, if i had a “God problem”. my answer was somethin like, “ there may be somethin out there, but what ev it may be, i dont believe”. he suggested i try usin the program of Alcoholics Anonymous as an HP. that...

what it took fer me was to listen, then watch. i listened in meetins to what others were sayin, then watched how they managed the circumstances they described, and what came about from the action and behavior they used, to live through a particular situation. when i seen how they reacted to their dilemma, usin...

i cannot recall the specific day i surrendered to this simple idea. but i do know it did happen. i cannot recall the specific day i accepted this simple idea. but i do know it happened. even as there may be times i fight fer my self-will, in the end, i usually surrender after ive...

recovery has taken me to places i never thought id get to go. ive learned how to be a person who is self-conscious in healthy ways. ive learned how to watch fer selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear. and when i find these perfectly normal human emotions come, recovery has given me tools to use to...

this is somethin ive done since early in my recovery. i can recall my sponsor at the time askin me to try it. at first i thought his ass was crazy, but i followed his suggestion. within the month tryin it i could sense the difference it made. since those times ive done it daily,...

i could not feel the transformation within others were tellin me they were seein in my early recovery. everythin within still seemed chaotic, totally unmanageable, and discombobulated. watchin others seemingly be at peace with the world around em, listenin to how they were able to live that way, left me no doubt somethin was workin...