today i have an understandin of how fear, and me wantin to control stuff, really leads to self-destruction fer me. when i take control of things that are critical areas of my life without consultation and guidance, or thought of what the outcomes may be, i often let fear take over and tend to mess...

when it was time to face the facts, it was time to face the facts. i tried everythin i knew not to do it but was left with no other recourse. i fought it hard but after lookin, and watchin the people around me, i had to finally pick 1 or the other. i chose...

i can remember as a youth searchin and wantin to find love, wonderin how it felt. i would ask people, how do you know. i would always get the answer, it just comes, with no strings attached. you'll have it before you even realize it. i think this of the spiritual angle of our program...

what i know best is to do my will. it sustained me for so long that it can be hard for me to break free of it. the false sense of security i provided myself helped me live for so many years. in tryin this new way of life, askin my HP to take charge...

at meetins is where i get to meet others sufferin from the same malady as me. i get to learn how they managed their situation so i can then try to apply the similarities to mine to hopefully fix em. i get to learn how hope led them to faith, how their HP worked in...

it was explained to me that it didnt matter if i believed in God or not if i wanted to get this thing. it was explained to me that all i had to do was believe in SOMETHIN other than joel. as i looked around and seen that there were people who were not all...

it was a process fer me to get in touch with God, it just took some time. i had to set obtainable goals and work toward them little by little. it felt good to see my goals get met after losin fer so long. today i set goals and continue to work toward them. it...

i was raised in a Christian home and knew what or who God was. even with that knowledge i still formed resentment and anger toward Him. when i began to get sober it was suggested that i rebuild a relationship with Him. it was quite an undertakin at 1st. today i am grateful He is...

after i had sobered up and started watchin the people around me who were sober with quality recovery, i began to notice that they were not goin through some of the stuff i had been goin through. at least if they were, they did not display it; i wondered what they had that i didnt....

i can remember thinkin i was all that. i can still go to thinkin that way when i take charge of my life. on the inside, im a scared lil boy fearin everythin, i would do anythin to NOT let that show. i am grateful today that my relationship with God has turned me into...