one of the most subtle ways my alcoholism can get to me is if i let someone elses wrong doin get to me whether fancied or real. i seemingly had no control over their actions, but yet i still feel somethin from it. it may be small at 1st, but as time passes, i nurture...

i have come to understand in my recovery, the spiritual axiom is a self-evident truth which requires no proof. before i came to the program i always felt like i was just missin somethin. i couldnt quite put my finger on it, but i knew i wasnt complete. i kept searchin fer what it may...

admittin i was wrong when i said somethin stupid or did somethin with just as much fervor, was tough fer me at 1st. i mean i could do it, but there wasnt much sincerity behind it. after all, wasnt it your fault ya got what ya got? time in the program made this a little...

i reckon it would be wrong fer me to say my spirituality doesnt get affected by shit that goes on around me today. in my humanness, i still live life each day. what is different from the past is, today i have other options available to me to help guide me through the times when...

Everyone wants to be better in some way, emotionally, financially, more peace, more possessions, more consistency and growth. The concept of better is often confusing and can in fact be damaging if we are not aware of the true nature of better. Feeling better, is not doing better. This is one of the biggest pitfalls...

i still have many fears today, some are unhealthy, and some are healthy. my HP has gifted me with humanness. whichever they are, i need to be aware when they are bein felt within. takin the proper action to identify em and live with em successfully by gettin with my HP, my sponsor, or another...

lookin at myself, rootin through yesterdays baggage, and admittin my wrong doin, is somethin i couldnt do before i got sober, it was always, your fault, i was where i was. step 10 allows me the courage to look within, accept i am just joel, that i do make mistakes, and that i can make...

i still get to go through some of that emotional necessary prunin. it is a part of spiritual growth necessary for emotional, psychological, behavioral, and spiritual health. although it is not as bad as before i got sober, i can still have a tough time with it. before, i could, and would, use alcohol to...

oh, the pain i caused whiles out doin my dirt, it did get bad enough to make changes in my life. the pain i caused others was what the final breakin point was fer me. i had destroyed peoples hopes and dreams of livin a happy normal life; i had also destroyed my personal aspirations...

im grateful my sponsor took his time goin thru the steps with me, though he was persistent in gettin me to continue to move forward, he didnt shove the program down my throat. this allowed me to get an understandin of each step, so when i approached step 10, i was prepared fer the life...