i can say, as i continue to enter this new dimension of reality, i too am fortunate, to have had this transformation happen in my life. i have seen so many go down fer the count, i know i am a blessed one; graced by God to have been able to have had the courage...

"i will never forget the loneliness and despair i found in that bitter morass of self-pity," these words from the big book speak volumes. i remember how that felt, how much i hated myself, how much i just wanted to die. how fear, in every stretch imaginable, had me held tight as one of its...

i understand today, AA isnt a cure-all. i reckon, when i 1st became a member of the program, i was hopin it would be like santa claus, but it wasnt. i found out i had to do the work to achieve the presents. im grateful fer the ability to have had the willingness to have...

today i get to walk past things that would have stopped me dead in my tracks years back. i have been given new soil fer my new roots. i can stand my ground and let the tornado whirl about me. these are things i used to be able to not do, i always had to...

i remember years back when it was suggested to me that i needed to build a relationship with a HP and have total faith in it. i could never even imagine the level of faith i have today, then. it is somethin that i have had to cultivate. it hasnt all come in 1 day,...

it can be hard fer me to honestly look at myself and make honest judgment calls that are true and real. i can make up all kinds of reasons why this, or that, should go in my favor, or not. when i am able to be totally honest about any given situation, i find that...

i remember when i came into the rooms and was able to start really listenin to what the people and speakers were sayin. i began to hear many of em speak of the way i had felt while i was out doin my dirt nstuff. it began to occur to me, i was really not...

this can be hard fer me to do sometimes, it does get easier as days pass. bein honest with others does confirm honesty within me. i am blessed today to be honest with others so i can be honest with myself. my HP confirms with me what dishonest actions do, He lets me see, live,...

i cant tell ya that i dont still suffer from the fear of failure sometimes, coz i do. i reckon God has graced me with the blessin of humanness. there are things around me every day that cause me to be fearful. the process of the steps has given me the knowledge, as i have...

fer me anger causes resentment, and it most generally has a fear involved at its base. when i am feelin it i need to fall back upon the teachins i have learned from this thing we do. as the readin suggests, anger is a dubious luxury fer most men, but fer me, it is poison....