i look back upon my time in this thing we do and think of how far ive come behaviorally, emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. there has been such immense growth in each area. even in the times i felt like everythin was gonna explode within me, when everythin would be lost, those are times i feel...
i love the paradoxes of recovery and one of the best is faith conquers fear. but how do i get to this point where i can become fearless merely by usin faith alone? fer me, i had to throw out lil pieces of faith and watch their return. i surely wasnt bout to lead with...
the absence of fear scared me, as crazy as that may sound. it took me time to get used to bein a part of somethin greater than i. learnin i wasnt the center of the universe caused a certain pause in everythin. i didnt have to rely totally upon just me. as i slowly threw...
everythin i believed in had to go when i made my venture into the rooms this last time. if i couldnt have what had kept me sane, so i thought, what was i to do? im an intelligent man and thought i had done well but faced with the proposition of continuin to drink and...
i have personally sat in the rooms with pimps and whores, murderers and thieves, judges, lawyers, and law enforcement, millionaires and homeless, doctors and engineers, priests and reverends, ship captains, CEOs and laypeople, rock stars and professional sports personalities, each one of us seekin the same common solution to a common disease we each shared....
nobody told me i had to, they only suggested i try to. it was explained to me to only try these contemporary and strangely new concepts fer 30 days. if i didnt see or feel any change, then go back to the shit i was doin. though they were guidelines toward a different and unique...
the hard look into why i had lost any kind of faith in my HP helped me to establish reason i had turned my back on the God of my youth. i could place argument as to why i had lived with the beliefs i had lived with throughout my life since i stopped attendin...
February 16 In This Moment, I’m sewing up my coat. I stopped by an ATM on the way to visit a doctor. On returning to my car, I couldn’t locate my keys. I went back to the ATM. No keys. I gingerly checked the car doors. All were locked. Inside the car were my pocketbook...
fer me, commitment means i promise to engage my person or time in somethin. it means i become resolute, with an allegiance, makin what ev it is, a personal obligation. recovery has taught, and shown me, if i can surrender to, and accept my problems, i have an opportunity to solve em so i may...
when i honestly look at the bedevilments listed on page 52 of the big book which define me as an alcoholic, the promises on page 83-84 do seem extravagant. havin watched others in the rooms in my early recovery, use what they learned about themselves, solve their problems by a simple reliance upon a Power...