Share Share on Facebook Share on Twitter Pinterest Email I want to hold you and to hug you The mom I knew The one who came to all my recitals and who Walked up and down the aisles at every assembly To get a better picture, a better view The mom I knew **** Where are you now, I wonder? The mom I knew I’ve been turning up all the couch cushions and looking Between the pages of every book On shelves unread Still brand new The mom I knew **** I want to sit and listen to The mom I knew The one who told me Bible stories Who spun yarns And fables with small details Tall tales–none of which were true The mom I knew **** I want to share my life with The mom I knew I want her to congratulate me on my new job The mom I knew **** I want her to seek me out and care To leave a light on To hold a space for me To express how much she misses me And wished I were there **** …to invite me for dinner Fix me a meal To pay me an unexpected visit To join me at the beauty parlor to do our hair– **** But that’s a mom I’ll never know I can cry until I’m blue She was just a fantasy They tell me she exists… **** …in me. **** The mom I knew Author Vikram Arora Related Posts Recovery Coach Connection November 10, 2020 Join Us for a Live Meeting with Anna David! August 19, 2020 Conscious Recovery Meditation July 11, 2020 Handling Your Teen’s Addiction July 1, 2020 4 Comments keri hayes 3 years ago Reply Why is,this,poem in a Recovery forum? nicole 3 years ago Reply I can’t speak to the purpose o the intentions but i know i can relate to this. i am a child of an addict. I lost my mom to her active addiction and I’ll never know a lot of what its like to have that type of relationship however i can live that out with my own children. this poem does have an aura of hope Deborah Allin 3 years ago Reply Because its very pertinent to emotional recovery the loss or absence of a loving mother. diane s thaler 2 years ago Reply Lisa, I love you and your beautiful poem. xoxo Write A Comment Cancel Reply Save my name, email, and website in this browser for the next time I comment.