I sat alone, the silence deafening and asked myself how did my life come to this?,
I knew the drink wasn’t working anymore,
It didn’t take away the pain like before.
It took away my laughter, my creativity and the years,
My head told me I didn’t have the strength or courage to live without it
I thought I couldn’t go on…..

Like in a dream you spoke to me and said
“I know the road you have traveled has been a rocky one,
I can see you feel desperate, frightened and alone.
But if you take your last bit of strength and come with me,
I will show you the way out so you can be free.”

I looked at the road ahead which led to the edge of a cliff
I walked over and looked up and down,
A thick mist covered everything above and all of the ground.
There was the faintest glow of the sun shining through,
The first bit of warmth that had touched my skin for a time.

Uncertain I turned around to look at the road I had traveled…
Strewn along it were the broken hearts of those who loved me,
I saw a little girl kneeling all alone and crying,
Once full of wonder, she was frantically trying to pick up the pieces of her hopes and dreams…
She had a gaping hole where her heart used to be.
I could see it clearly now,
There was nothing back there for me but pain and misery….

I walked over to the edge, scared of what lay ahead but knowing in my heart I couldn’t go back.
Like a baby bird taking flight for the first time,
I closed my eyes and jumped into the unknown…
It took that one leap of faith for me to be able to see,
All the wonderful things that you had waiting for me……


Nicola is our Blog and Article Editor at InTheRooms.com. Her work has been published internationally in many publications. She is a qualified Reflexologist, Masseuse and Life Coach. She has created content for intherooms.com for many years and was Editor at iloverecovery.com. She has lived with type 1 diabetes since she was 7 years old.


  1. terrycross Reply

    It’s wonderful Mary. So touching; well put. From the heart and anyone knowing you in the past six years knows you’ve found your wings and have been saved from crashing below. Thank you for this. And your strong recovery. So inspiring

  2. Kathleen Russell Reply

    Love this Poem Mary. Thank you for writing again! So much to offer, so beautiful as are You. Look forward to More 🙂

  3. Well done Mary,it’s hard to recover and feel good again,able to see the life from different angle,able to enjoy the life! Be proud of yourself and keep doing everything what’s make you happy. Big hugs to you and your lovely mummy.xxx

  4. Marian Meehan Reply

    Wonderful Mary.Your shining light will always pull you through x

  5. Beautiful and very touching. You are a beautiful flower just blooming and growing into the magnificent blossom you will be. Keep writing. Keep sharing. Keep coming. Keep growing. Bravo!!

  6. Angela Berry Koch Reply

    Thank you Mary.. I used to write so much years ago and yet became so frozen in my creativity when under the bottle — and yet I felt a sense that I could open up my writing again – and also do some art — like you inspired me the idea of mosaics and – what was it? stamps? metal etchings is it? Curious. Anyway — your piece was an inspiration for me… so grateful. Angela

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