my daily reflections…

i get to have a lot of fun in life today, but i cannot forget why i am able to have so much fun. its really nothin i do, its somethin that is a gift to me. the ability to make another smile and laugh in the midst of chaos and calamity is somethin that i enjoy doin. to pass on a peaceful, lovin, and warm feelin to another, recognizin that God has done this fer me, not only makes me feel good, but also helps the other person. my HP has given me a new lease on life; why not share it with others so that they may see the joy that He has provided fer us. thank you lord fer thinkin bout me, im a live n’ doin fine through your grace and love. to be able to let self, go, to be able to accept life on lifes terms, and follow the guidance of anothers will, was somethin i always feared. i swore i would never bend, ALWAYS fightin against the person who tried to make me bend, after all, i was my own person. aint it funny how in the end of my drinkin days i was a slave to my alcoholisms wants and ways. i have lived experiences which taught me, do unto self as i would have others do unto me. i only seemed to get what i thought i genuinely wanted never fulfillin the hole that was deep and dark within. today i dont see life the way i did so many years back. this thing we do taught me a new way, a way to treat self, better, by givin rather than receivin. as i have grown in recovery i have earnestly let my HP in so He could work through me. i aint always got it right, but i am gettin better as my days proceed. today i seek humility as a gift, not as a feared goal. 1 day @ a time…