my daily reflections…

i will never forget the feelins of self-demoralization and loneliness i felt durin those last days of drinkin and doin my dirt, it even went on through early sobriety, it hurt! as my head began to clear and with the leadership of a good sponsor, i began to see, as crazy as this may sound, the benefit of goin through such an awful time. it was a trainin tool i needed to live through to get to where i am today. i still think about those very difficult days and thank my HP fer allowin me the strength to get through them as successfully as possible. each day i am grateful fer the lessons learned so that i, hopefully, never have to experience them again without the solution the 12 spiritual principles provide. to finally accept i had been whipped sufficiently by my own doin was what it took fer me to gain the humility this thing we do offers. understandin that i had caused all of the problems in my life, changin my perception from the victim to the aggressor and movin toward forgivin myself fer the havoc and chaos i created is the measure of my humility. it was NOT an easy process fer me to live through. many times, i just wanted the healin process to end, yet was very afraid to go back to what i had left behind. today i am able to face those fears and not let my will react to them. stoppin, lookin at the situation fer what it is, askin fer help, and calmly lettin my HP demonstrate His will through me is what the price of admission into a new life is fer me. removal of pride is a rather small price to pay fer forgiveness, peace, serenity, and humility. 1 day @ a time…