my daily reflections…

faith is somethin i always had, it may not have been in God, but i did have faith i could make life happen the way i seen fit. after i had gotten into the program, i learned the faith i had was very misguided. the faith i had, led me into all kinds of problems and self-destructive behaviors. after watchin many people who were successful in this program, i learned i needed to change the faith i had in myself, to faith in God. this of course was a tough proposition; how could i turn any faith i had had toward God, when i had been so angry at Him? i was taught that i should just give it a try, do the next right thing in my life, and see what happened. it took time to learn what those right actions were, but i did, and my faith in Him has grown coz i started to see Him work in my life as i did His will. it was a willingness to have faith, but more so, it was the willingness to do the action i had to put into faith, which made faith work fer me. as said, i had faith and kept God out of my life. today, it is my understandin that the right kind of faith, or spiritual faith that keeps me sober and livin a program of recovery, includes my HP. those who came to the rooms before me taught me how to plant the seeds of faith, by right action. i get to say what i do and show another what i say. 1 day @ a time...