my daily reflections…

i remember thinkin i was dyin from this disease, truth is, i was. i remember tryin everythin i could so i could continue drinkin by changin the drinkin habits i had, EVERYTHIN i tried failed. when i 1st came into the program i wondered how all this STUPID stuff would work fer me. as i watched others make it, i began tryin and doin the things that made them successful, and i started to feel better. i wondered if their "design fer livin" would help me. i mean, it all seemed far too simple, askin God to be a part of my life, when i had tried that already, c’mon man, it didnt work. little by little, and with much trial and error, it started makin sense to me; the things they suggested to do were actually makin things in my life get better. i started wantin to actually be a part of it all, a part of life, and a part of the fellowship. today as my faith continues to grow i still go through times that are hard on me, but i use the suggestions they put forth and things seem to work out in a way that help me live through em as i manage em. 1 day @ a time...