my daily reflections…

oh, how i remember the guilt, remorse, and self-loathin. to be quite honest, the fear of experiencin all of those feelins again helps ta keep me from usin and drinkin today. i didnt like feelin those feelins, though perfectly human, they sucked ass! i understand today if i continue to put what i perceive is Gods will 1st in my life, i wont ever have to feel these feelins to the depth i have in the past. today, i have been promised, through recovery, solutions to troubles with personal relationships, some control of my emotional natures, a way not to fall prey to misery or depression, the feelin of uselessness, a way to be happy, and not live full of fear, with a simple reliance upon my HP. it doesnt mean i aint gonna feel my humanness, it just means i have solutions for my humanness when life seems to become too much for me to bear alone. ive learned to right the harm. 1 day @ a time...